Last night I emailed Hira questions regarding my resuming sungazing after some time off. This morning I just muscle tested the most wise way to proceed. As a result, I watched a gorgeous winter sun through cottonwood trees that stood 150 yards away from me. It rose a perfect cylinder through horizontal zebra strips. Normally clouds as thick as these would have blocked out the sun but the blast of heat seemed to sizzle away the white precipitation. At one point, it seemed to resemble a beach scene with the suns rays shooting down onto the ocean (clouds).

I found this "watch" to be easy and comfortable. Like being home in some way. I feel sure of myself now. I needed the break to see if I own this process, if it is my place, my right, and it is. I can speak on the subject now and I can feel I have an intimacy with the sun that is unique. I just heard my mind recall the Christian statement, "I have a personal relationship with Jesus" ( but you can't hear the Evangelical southern accent for which this statement sounded in my mind:) But seriously, I think I understand what the statement means.

Now on the other hand, it was very cold. the temperature seaped through my thick jeans, Serrel boots and wools socks. My arctic bred dog wants longer walks when I want to rush right through it. I thought this morning how beautiful it would to have a stretch I could walk to watch the sun and walk the dog. Well now that I think of it, I may just fall over because I am sun blind during the actual process.

I realize that if I keep writing with out introducing myself and explaining terms like muscle testing or the process of sungazing etc etc. you may feel confused and disconnected and therefor maybe bored and frustrated. So i promise to gather my blog entries from tribe, and post it as one blog here on blogspot.
I think I feel a little more comfortable writing to you, not knowing who or how many of you there are. On tribe I asked friends and acquaintances to be friends on Tribe and they did or did not read it. I just imagined they did.

My eyes feel good, my body feels great at this 8th day of my fast. I still have the physical problems I mentioned but the swelling has gone down and I have healed some. I will fast again and again until I heal or I am not eating anyway because of using the sun for body energy, at that point I will definitely heal. Catherine