31 minutes and 10 seconds

I gazed for 31:10. I just feel I can't really be honest here on this blog. I don't know if I can narrow it down to a certain amount of people but its hard since there arent any people to narrow down. but I may just go back to tribe and write maybe because I can at least feel I am writing to just a few people who probably aren't reading anyway. and even if I can never post it or its a pain in the ass too I will at least have a copy. So much is happening in my life that its crazy and I can't say how much has to do with Solar Healing. but I also feel this sence of vulnerability that is over whelming. I know on tribe anyone essential could read my blog if they wished but for some reason it felt more local or intimate. Its just this energetic feeling I get from the whole thing. Anyway.

31minutes again I guess

I see that I already watched the sun for 31 minutes previous to today. and I did again today, so there. It was hard, as it has been, watching the sun other than the first thing in the morning. so I did watch earlier, let say about 10ish and it was bearable. I gazed the other day a few times in one day but it did not add up to more than my highest time so I didn't record it with you. but I did get very sick. I have been having a healing crisis to the enth degree. everything hurt from my head to my toes. It burned, shot pains, inflamed, infected, ached. you name it. but I do feel better I am just coughing like a tb patient but even that has subsided today. so, I guess I have stepped over a hurdle, made a new commitment in a way. I was hesitating and feeling stuck. but I pushed forward and now my body wants to go to the next level. I am to vibrate at a higher frequency from now on.

31 minutes

The sun just seemed too bright to watch. It made my face feel too warm. I stopped when this happened resulting in three gazeing sessions, adding up to 31 minutes. Yesterday I watched for 30 minutes and 50 seconds. wondering if the whole gosh darn thing is a big ass bore. Probably not. I've tried to sabatoge my success with this for a couple months now. I need to stay determined and move forward or at least not stop. c

30minutes 40 seconds

ok well, 30 minutes 40 second, minus the 17 minutes and some seconds, at which point I fell asleep.
Suggestion # ? on the subject of sungazing.
Never lay down on a Down bed, on new years day, after dancing until 4am, next to your mate, who is napping, and expect to stay awake until you finish your 30 m 40 seconds of sungazing. Happy New Year!